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The General Who Is Dead
by Jeff VanderMeer
MY NAME IS Stephen Barrow and I served in the Korean
War, under the auspices of the 52nd Battalion. You would not
have heard about the 52nd Battalion on the newsreels, for all
we did is defend a city of the dead from the dead without, and the city
held us in its thrall. From afar, it appeared as a glittering white crown
of pagodas and snow, undisturbed and pristine. The walled kingdom of an
ice witch, something right out of C.S. Lewis The Lion, the Witch,
and the Wardrobe, perhaps.
Our mission was morbid and macabre and we loved it
fiercely, for it kept us from the front lines. The city had been abandoned
for over a year. Within its walls, the U.S. High Command had decided to
house, catalog, and prepare for shipment stateside, the bodies of the
soldiers who had died at the front in our stead. We also housed, cataloged,
and prepared (for cremation) the remains of South Korean civilians who
had been caught in the crossfire. At times, the city streets were littered
with the dead, all formally laid out, limbs no longer akimbo from bomb
or mine blast, faces much more serene since their grimaces had been crafted
into the artifice of smiles. Perhaps they merely slept, I would joke with
my fellow soldiers, usually Nate Burlow, a muscle-bound lunk from New
Jersey and Tom Waters, a slender willow with hair so black it was almost
blue and pale green eyes that stared out unblinking from beneath a helmet
too big for his head. Nate was garrulous and Tom silent to a fault, calm
as ice in a Rusty Nail. Between the two of them, I came very close to
keeping my sanity amongst the dead.
All of us doubled up on our duties to conserve manpower,
and so I became, much against my will, a writer of press releases for
the army, under the supervision of Colonel X_______. It was easy work
and I did it at my desk on the fourth floor of headquarters, which had
been set up in the Buddhist temple at the citys center. The temple
was the tallest structure in a place where the buildings seemed to genuflect
and make themselves as small against the earth as possible.
I would sit with the snow-white pieces of paper in
front of me and, when the pens were not frozen, I would write about the
death of General So-and-So, the bravery of Corporal Whats-His-Name.
It gave me a lot of time to think. Perhaps too much time. My past did
not bear up under close scrutiny and if, in describing what I am about
to describe I am indirect about my own life; if, to be blunt, I discard
bland fact in favor of hard truth, forgive me.
Suffice it to say, the war had passed us by in more
ways than one. By the time I came into the middle of it, my landing at
Inchon had none of the biting melodrama of MacArthurs initial beach
head. Colonel B. Powell had urinated proudly in the Yalu River more than
six months before, doing several "takes" for the Stars &
Stripes boys, blissfully ignorant of the fact that no American soldier
after him would advance so far to demonstrate his backwardness. U.S. General
Smith, a marine, had already declared, "Retreat, Hell! Were
not retreating! Were just advancing in a different direction!"
All the photo ops and all the best lines had been taken. By the time I
came to Korea, the war had bogged down to a slow, futile, and bloody shifting
of the lines along barren fields of snow, advance and retreat along the
38th parallel, like the ebb and flow of some Ice Age tide.
All I had were dead bodies to take care of and paper
to write on and my buddies to shoot the shit with. And, of course, the
dead Chinese soldiers outside the citys walls.
WHEN I CAME to the city, along with Nate and Tom, the
dead Chinese soldiers were the first thing we saw. You couldnt miss
them. Over forty thousand of them on the plain outside the citys
walls. The sergeant-at-arms had made sure the chopper let us off in the
middle of the plain so that we had to walk through the dead to reach the
city. What the man was trying to prove, I have no idea.
There were thirty of us new boys and we said nothing
to each other at the timeout of nervousness or sympathy or respect,
I dont know which. All I know is we were so quiet you could hear
the crunch of our boots in the snow. The sunlight suffused the snow and
bled through the soldiers, turning them crystalline and divine and pathetic
all at once. As you can see through the skins of certain fish to their
internal organs, so you could see through the ice and know the shapes,
the contours, of the dead men on the frozen field. Some knelt and some
stood and some huddled in clumps seeking a warmth which had long since
left them. Forty thousand dead Chinese soldiers sprawled along a snowy
plain. There were forty thousand stories in those lives, for they had
all died in subtlely unique ways, and those ways had lent all of their
faces a fierce individuality which would mark them even when spring came
and thawed them out.
They had called themselves "The Army Which Casts
No Shadow" because they had marched by night and lay camouflaged
from reconnaisance planes by day. United Nations forces had not spotted
them until they crossed the 38th Parallel. They had outrun
their own supply lines out of Manchuria, in an attempt to cut off U.S.
forces from Inchon. They had no choice but to march forward and assault
the U.S. perimeter at Pusan. They never made it. Our forces just kept
retreating, left no supplies behind, and their progress slowed as they
grew hungry, and then a blizzard caught them out in the open. They had
already eaten their boots; almost none of them that I could see had shoes
on their feet.
Parodies of statues in Pompeii. The ice which
had hardened around their bodies had also hardened their features, disguised
their uniforms and weaponry, so that indeed it was a plain of statuary,
ethereal, ghostly, and mocking. No one would have guessed they were once
an army, or that they had marched anywhere, that once they had been alive.
Walking among them I felt a crawling sensation across my spinea
helplessness and a despair that I did not know could live within me. I
had a sudden frantic urge to write it down, to write about their deaths.
I could not tell whether the impulse was ghoulish or commemorative, so
I let it pass.
"Come Spring," muttered Tom.
"Come Spring what?" said Nate.
"Come Spring, theyll thaw and then therell
just be forty thousand stinking dead people here for the vultures to feast
on."
It was about the longest sentence Tom ever said,
and when I got to know him better, I knew it meant those dead soldiers
had really gotten to him, under his skin.
But they looked curiously at peace out in the snow,
the longer I stared at themas if they waited for someone or something
to resurrect them. Or perhaps I read that into them and I was waiting
for someone to resurrect me. I had a sudden memory of making snow angels
in the front yard of our house, my Dad at six-six spread out ridiculously,
making giant angels, while my own had been much smaller divinities.
WE WALKED AMONG the dead men for nearly an hour that
first, most important, time, although the walls of the city were near.
We did not feel, not having seen the indignities of war first hand, that
we could leave without paying our respects, if that is the correct term.
It was like walking among gravestones, only these men needed no such symbolism.
They stood staunchly for themselves. Seeing them so vulnerable, waiting
for the thaw that would make them fully human again, my imagination began
to unfetter itself from the cold and the company of my fellow soldiers.
Something churned in my stomach and up, into my heart. What if these men,
these soldiers, really were waiting for someone? As if they had been enchanted,
put under a spell? Who were they waiting for?
"Who are they waiting for?" I said it aloud.
"General who?" Tom said, as if reading
my mind.
"General Who," I said. Inside, the churning
stopped and I thought, yes, it was General Who who led them. General Who
who would come back for them. He could protect them, much as my father
had often wrapped his arms around me in the snow and held me against his
chest, warm and secure.
As we finally left the field, I saw a Chinese woman
who had frozen to death along with the soldiers, a look of divinity upon
her face. As if she could see something magical, beyond her reach. Her
head was inclined upward and when I saw her, her features etched cruelly
in the ice, I looked where she looked, almost expecting there to be someone
in the sky, or some sign.
But, this time, there was just the white. Always
the white. And, from then on, I could not hate our Enemy, or even think
ill of Him, but thought only of when I too would be stiff, my eyes staring
out into the unknown, afraidtaken away from the sudden, lacerating
beauty of this world and into the cruel glacial light of the next.
"General Who is dead," I said as we left
that place, and Tom and Nate nodded like they almost understood what I
meant.
First appeared in Freezer Burn and Albedo1.
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